Real Life In Traffic at Traffic
Real Life In Traffic at Traffic
Man.. Women, I don’t understand them. Even when you don’t act off of somethin they still want to put on a show! I mean shit it’s like u can’t live with em or without em. Now if u LOVE, the only way out is in a casket. So what should be brought to the table? Jus sayin.. Peace.
Today is the day my journey of finding myself begins. I’m moving out of my moms house. This has been my only parent since day 1 so I can say this is the hardest moment of my life. Removing all my posters and taking all my track and field medals from highschool off the wall. A few tears were shed but this is for my own good and I know it. I may be leaving under bad circumstances but I had to make the adult decision for myself. My father was not around to teach me how to have a backbone with making decisions like this so when I become successful I’m gonna pull up in a BMW 745 on his deadbeat ass an show him a real man was made by a real coward. I never meant to hurt anyone in my family but me as a young man refuse to see my family down and broken. I love everyone in my family but love don’t pay the bills and I don’t expect anyone to pay the bills. I just want my mom to see everything that she went through with me was worth it. I want her to know I can hold my own and that I will be okay because I know she worries but god has the final say of how long he wants me here. If me looking down a barrel of a 45 wasn’t enough to send me under than I know god wants me here and wants me here for a purpose. Im gonna make you proud mama. I know you hate me and think I care about the wrong things but in reality I care about our future. We’ve been on section 8 for so long they put us in nice areas now. That’s not how I want you to spend the rest of your life mama so forgive me for doin me because I feel in my heart I can make a difference on my own. I love you….
I’m told to remember the ones that care about me and who are here for me in the mist of my success in life but through the struggle not one person was here. I cant put a pinpoint on how I’m suppose to make it through this chapter in my life. So much has taken place to the point I can just say forget everything I have ever dreamed of for myself. Naw Fuck that, I aint allowing that shit I’m gonna continue to stack my money and hope one day im sitting in a glass house watchin punk MF’s get rained on from the inside. Yea life is a bitch but now im finna mack the shit out of her. Peace..
Wassup wit it! Happy first day of summer. Today I got the balls to let someone listen to me tryna craft my freestyles. I’m glad I got the feedback I got. I can’t always freestyle on first take an be koo wit that. gotta keep that in my head. Friday me an the homie Labrew finna go in half for this mic. We understood that we all we had goin in. First day of summer kinda tellin me this ain hot enough. This movement is like goin into fire but if u fighting fire wit fire it ends up balancing out with that bein said gotta keep my composure an worry about the PROGRESS only! “progress only comes before struggle in the dictionary”-Church Tha Chi-Town Pimp
Happy new year to all. it actually feels like a new year, time to embrace it. today was wierd as f***. Kicked it wit my lil bro JP an we took a lightrail mission to arden bout some money. the lightrails in Sac have homeless people at them usually but today I ran into the most random one. he was like the homeless guy from Bruce Almighty. He was talkin about god an s*** while I had weed in my hand (purple to be exact) but he seen the weed an said “god even gave you that” It was like god himself know I didnt want to put it down cuz i was debatin on if i shuld stop but dig this, later on I meet a girl who’s shoe’s caught my attention. A simple compliment opened opportunities for me bout a job at shiek. The girl was diggin me come to find out sooooooooo its goodthees! lol I had to do a entry on that one. God exist man he just not finna put any s*** in your ear if u dont care enough to listen I found out today soon enough yall will too wether its thru god, budda, or an OG that put you on game. the message you need will come so for now livin day by day is the first objective before you start lookin for signs real talk .
Just to update you guys I had my first studio experience yesterday. Not gonna lie it was dope as fuck. Theres really some talent in Sac you just have to be willing to search an listen thru shit you feel me. So I hit the producer today since he said yesterday that he fuxx wit me but problem is he talkin money which I understand fluently. I was so anxious to get on the mic but jumpin on like dat waste’n money off tops wasnt in the plans specially wen a nigga low on funds lol. But its all good $15 an hour tho?? I fuxx wit it lol! Wit that bein said I’ll be in the booth for the very first time on friday wish me luck yall. -Cam